Chapter 6 - LAUREN FINALLY SAT ACROSS FROM ME
Lauren requested mediation.
Not estate mediation.
Personal.
Through Sterling.
I almost refused.
Then agreed to one meeting.
One hour.
Neutral conference room.
Lauren arrived wearing no makeup.
That was unusual enough to feel strategic.
She sat across from me.
For almost two minutes, nobody spoke.
Then:
“I hate you.”
I nodded.
“Okay.”
She blinked.
“You’re not going to say anything?”
“You’re allowed.”
Her face tightened.
“You took Grandma away from me.”
“No.”
“You made her think I was terrible.”
“No.”
“She changed everything because of you.”
“No.”
I leaned forward.
“She changed everything because of what she observed.”
Lauren laughed bitterly.
“Saint Jenna.”
“There she is.”
“What?”
“The version of me you need.”
I smiled sadly.
“If I’m self-righteous, you don’t have to think about yourself.”
Her eyes filled with rage.
“You think you’re so smart.”
“No.”
“You always did.”
“No.”
“You went to college.”
“So did you.”
“I dropped out.”
“I never mocked you for that.”
“No, you just became perfect.”
I stared.
Perfect?
I thought about every criticism.
Every smaller birthday.
Every family dinner where Lauren picked the restaurant.
Every emergency fund I built because I knew nobody would rescue me.
“You thought I was perfect?”
Lauren laughed through tears.
“You never needed anybody.”
There it was again.
Not needing became accusation.
“I needed people.”
“No, you didn’t.”
“I learned not to ask.”
That silenced her.
I continued.
“Do you remember when I was seventeen and my car broke down outside Rockford?”
Lauren frowned.
“Dad made me call three tow companies myself.”
“Yes.”
“You were twenty-one.”
She stared.
“Your tire blew on the interstate.”
Her face changed.
“Dad drove ninety minutes to get you.”
Silence.
“You didn’t create that difference.”
I paused.
“But you learned to expect it.”
Lauren started crying.
Then whispered:
“The wine was awful.”
“Yes.”
“I wanted to humiliate you.”
“Yes.”
“I wanted you gone.”
“Yes.”
“Because I thought the house was mine.”
“Yes.”
She wiped her face.
“I’m sorry.”
I believed part of it.
Then she said:
“Can you tell Sterling I shouldn’t lose the million?”
I almost laughed.
Not from cruelty.
Exhaustion.
“No.”
Lauren’s face hardened.
“Then what’s the point?”
There.
Transaction.
Apology as invoice.
I stood.
“The point was telling the truth.”
She stared.
“And now?”
“Now you decide whether the truth matters even when it doesn’t pay.”
I left.
For another year, I heard nothing directly from Lauren.
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That was probably the first useful silence we ever shared.
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